It's simply awful to fall out of love.

I can't help it. Yes, there are many things going on my mind right now. My mind brings back memories. Memories I can't forget. Happy memories. Funny memories. Memories that are all about YOU.

Why did it happened? Why did you gave up? Will you come back again? If you'll come back, will you be better? Will I be better? When will you come back? Can we bring back the memories we had? What will people say? Will they become happy for us? Will there ever be an "US" again? Nagpahinga ka lang ba kaya ayaw mo na? Ayaw mo na talaga? O ayaw mo MUNA? O ano na?

So many questions, but no answers.

I blame myself for thinking too much. I have faults too you know. I hold (held?) back my feelings every time someone asks my if I'm fine, or anything related about my feelings.

I guess I'll just have to accept the fact that I cannot go back in time. I can still mend this problem. But, how? why? when? where?

Concerned people said I should not eksplain or talk anything about our break up to him. Because it would look like I'm the desperate one. The one-who-cannot-live-without-him.

I just want to eksplain my opinion to him so that I could prove to him that I had some faults, and he had faults too. Cause and effect thing.

Yet again, I just let things roll. I let him talk to me again. We talked a little this vacation. This is one of the reasons why I hate myself for easily forgiving people. For people to take me for granted.

Think happy thoughts. All the pain will be worth it.

People come and go.

This is how I encourage myself to be happy. Yet again, I still weep. It's okay right? :/

Hay.

*will self destruct.

*testing, testing.

*abangan niyo pa ang posts na mga ganito sa buhay ko. =))