You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream.

For the past two weeks, my dreams were a little weird. (people leaving me, people who (or whom?) I don't remember were dead, and many more.) I don't know what it means in real life. Maybe I dreamed of it because I think too much.

Anyway, here's what happened this week.

Monday: I forgot what happened.

Tuesday: Our training day.

Wednesday: His classmate's birthday. I didn't go with him.

Thursday: His training day. It was also my friend's birthday.

Friday: My training day. Coach announced that we could play the novice competition on October 9 '10. Yey! My first ever competition in fencing. But I'll spend more or less 5K for my equipments. Expensive. :/ I'll spend 500 for my PAFA license so that I could play. Goodbye moola.

Saturday: Our training day.

I wasn't with him that much. He's busy, I'm busy.

Then I opened up my feelings to him today. Then he got mad at me. Sige na, ako naman palaging mali eh. Lagi ka pang nang aaway. No, hindi ka palagi yung mali. No, hindi ako nang aaway. I only said what I want to say.

He said SORRY and it won't happen again, then we became okay. I guess. I want to hug him so badly. :|

Plans for next week:

• Save at least P200-400.
• Attend training at least two times.
• Fix things that are needed to be fixed.
• Finish all my requirements.
• Complete my notes in all subjects.
• Buy fencing equipments.
• Pay for my PAFA license.
• Pass my requirements for the competition.
• Sleep early.
• Give hugs to people.
• Eat healthy.
• will end bullet form now. Too many.

Night.

Books.

I love reading books. People named me bookworm before. The bookworm returns. :)

Reading books was the reason why I have eyeglasses. :-j

The first series that I finished in more or less than a month was:

Yes, twilight.

I didn't ate food after classes for two weeks to buy that.
But this year, my classmate lost my new moon book. He paid for it but I didn't bought a new one because I already read it. And I think it's just a waste of money. Maybe I'll buy it next year or this year.

Reading these was worth it.

The second set of series that I'm currently reading is:

BOOO. I'm such a late reader.
At first, I hated Harry Potter whenever I watch the movie because I don't understand a thing in what they're saying. The accent. :/
Now? I finished book one and I'll read book two tomorrow. ;)

After Harry Potter, I want to read the following:

Percy Jackson and Hunger Games.

I'll read books about love too, wait for it.

Rants before going to sleep.

"maybe it's true, I can't live without you.

And maybe two is better than one.

There's so much time to figure out the rest of my life.

And you've already got me coming undone.

And I'm thinking two is better than one."

Two is better than one by Boys Like Girls.

LSS.

Last night, I slept late again because I was exchanging text messages with my best friend-turned father-turned brother. He was a Pre-Service Teacher last school year. Then we became close. We still update each other every single day. He's cool and nice at the same time because he prefers calling himself "Kuya" rather than Sir.

So, here are the things that happened today.

• I woke up late but still managed to arrive at school on time.
• My friends told me that I look sad today. Eventually, I am.
• I couldn't help it. So I cried during recess time. BOO. I'm such a lachrymose kid.
• Many people saw me crying and reacted. Including second year students who were my "siblings".
• I passed Chemistry! History! Geometry! CL! Hurrah. But I'll take my periodical exams seriously. My chemistry is a little low: 46/70, History:57/65, Geometry, 32/55 (Proving why are you so hard?), CL: I got two mistakes babe. ♥
• Finished compiling UAAP requirements in Fencing.
• Bought chocolates for my cravings. Okay, that's one of the main reasons why I am not getting thinner. HRRR.
• We're okay now. He said sorry and it made me feel happy again. I love you for making me okay. :) I shall hug you tomorrow. I hope.

"Ate, smile ka naman. Lagi ka namang malungkot eh."

There you go. Smile. :D

Goodnight.

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I know what I did last weekend part 2.

September 13: Monday.

I woke up early to cram my AP performance task. Then I went to school after that. Our dismissal time that day was 3pm but I arrived at home around quarter to 6. Why? It rained. So we got stranded. Too bad I didn't hugged him goodbye because I was soaking wet and he has this 1 whole illustration board to take home.

September 14: Tuesday.

Giving out of cards. My grades were okay but I wasn't satisfied about it. I shall study more. Our dismissal time was 2pm but I arrived at home around 5:30pm because it rained again and we got stranded. I didn't hugged him for the second time because he left me (hrrrr) and I was soaking wet.

September 15-17: Mastery Exams.

Hell week again.

Sept 15: English (the scope is about IPA, midsummer night's dream, communication cycle, shakespeare, and rip van winkle) and Geometry Quiz (about triangles)

Sept 16: CL (about the church, I guess.)

Sept 17: Chemistry (computations), History (memorizations). My head will explode. :|

September 18: Training.

After a week of studying. My brain cells will become tired. Then my body will be the next thing to be exhausted.

September 19: Fingers crossed that this will be my rest day.

I know what I did last weekend part 1.

"And I wanna believe you,

When you tell me that it'll be okay,

Ya I try to believe you,

But I don't."

- Tomorrow by Avril Lavigne.

Good Evening. I'm trying to fix my grammar here. :-h

So yeah, I'll tell you what happened last September 11, September 12, September 13, and today.

September 11: 9th monthsarry.

As usual, we did nothing. We don't celebrate month anniversaries. Idk why.

We didn't saw each other that day. He didn't went to our training in fencing. He was just at UST busy doing performance tasks. Me? I went to our training. But I didn't went to UST because of the go see model show. The go see model was an epic fail, I didn't passed my requirements because I got lazy waiting for the cue of the guy-whose-job-is-to-collect-those. Anyway, so we just greeted each other. :3

I was not contented because we were supposed to watch a movie but we have no time. :| BOO.

September 12: Sunday.

We just texted each other. But his replies were late because as usual, he's busy. Actually, I am curious why he's really been busy. My expectation is.. he's fixing a surprise for me. Reality? There's no surprise. He's really been busy because of the performance tasks.

Moving on, My mom, little brother, and I went to Ninang's house because it was my kinakapatid's birthday. I took care of kids there. They're so adorable. Their cheeks was so cute and I love pinching them. :)

That night, Mom, Ninang, and their friend talked to each other while I was busy texting but I'm still listened to their stories. It's an ability that I want to improve - listening while doing something. Their stories were interesting. So interesting I sat with them for hours. Their stories were about their life before they were married, or anything that focuses about love. It made me ~kiligs~.

Then it got to the point where mom got a little tipsy. She said she wants to go to the beach after a long day to scream her bad vibes. She wants to do it so she won't have any worries.

Now? I cried because of what she said. She's too busy guiding us. Too busy she has little time for herself. Yes, I'm that sensitive to cry over something. :/

Hindi ko alam kung ano nararamdaman ko ngayon.

• Stress?
• Lungkot?
• Inis?

Shizz. Naguguluhan ako.

Sana lumipas din 'to.

Madami pa naman akong gagawin.

Hindi ako nakakagawa ng isang bagay kapag wala sa mood. :|

I'm not in a good mood to talk to you today.

Hello boyfriend.

Him: Astig ni Diane (his friend, I guess) kanina. Naka yellow na dress... *continues to speak*

Me: Okay. Ano gagawin ko? Hayok ka na naman?

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Him: Sorry.

Me: K.

I don't want to talk to anyone today. Hrrrr. There's still a big burden in my mind even though I confessed to the priest and told stories to my friends.

Big mood swing.

Stay with me through my bad vibes. Then you'll have me at my best mood.