My wishlist.

1. A personal journal. For me to pour my thoughts anytime I want to.
2. A 2011 planner so that I could organize my plans everyday.
3. A digital camera for me to summarize my life for at least everyday.
4. More shoes for my shoe collection.
5. Money to update my wardrobe.
6. Ipod, because I love to listen to music. Plus, I find it better than Itouch.
7. Spare cellphone (cherry mobile), for emergency purposes.
8. Books for vocabulary improvement.
9. Laptop for my personal use.
10. Bags.
11. Schools supplies. I'm running low in my school supplies.

How am I feeling?

When I generalize what I feel, I feel fine.

Then when you get deeper, my emotions are all.. fvcked up. There's this side that thinks that I can talk to that person. She wants to fix the problems. She still hopes that things will get better the second time around. She believes that second chances happen. She wants to fight for love. She'll do anything for the one she loves.

Then here's the other side. She thinks that true love isn't true at all. Let him wait for him to approach you. Never approach him when he isn't the one who approached first. She wants to change that person because she doesn't know him now. She doesn't want to fight because she already knows that it'll be a complete failure. She doesn't want to love again because her heart really hurts. She wants to start all over again but she doesn't know how to. She's stuck in the past. She wants to move on but she can't.

But you know what? One of the things she wants to do is.. not to cry anymore. She's really sick of crying. She already knows that the tears aren't worth it. Nobody died right? So why bother crying?

She can do this. She must be strong and just go with the flow. She misses you so much, she loves you. But she needs to fix her own life. She must be happy for the everybody's sake.

Oh, her name is Lydelle by the way.

OOHHH. Love, why do you hurt me this way? :| Hha.

December 7 2010.

So today, we had regular classes. We also took examinations in Computer and TLE. Our test in TLE is a little hard. I forgot the names of the tools. In computer, it was a hands-on test. Good thing about it is I finished it on time. I hope I got it right. Lunch time, we picked random names for our exchange gifts. I picked our teacher in English. Then monthly mass after classes. After that, we went to the class room to kill time.

Anyway, Mom has given me 6 pairs of shoes since last month. Two are doll shoes, two are heels, and two are rubber shoes. Then it gave me an idea that I could start a shoe collection because I'm starting to love shoes again. One of my inspiration right now about that is Imelda Marcos. ;)

Hmm. I want to watch Vampire Diaries tonight. I want to finish the season one tonight. HAHA.

K. BTW, it's my second day to not eat rice. I hope my no rice policy will last at least a week or month.

Realizations while I was watching Vampire Diaries.

• You can only depend on yourself.
• Love conquers all.
• Unexpected things can happen.
• If you really want something, no matter how hard it is to achieve, you can get it.
• Twilight is really different than Vampire Diaries. VD is better. ;)
• Ooh. The Salvatore Brothers are so handsome. :">

Here's my favorite quotations.

The only one I can count on is.. me. - Damon.

Elena: If you walk away, it's for you. Because I know what I want. Stefan, I love you.

- By the way, I loved that scene. The part where Elena asked for a second chance to Stefan. After she said those three words, Stefan walked up to her and kissed her.

Damon: What's so special about this Bella girl? Edward's so whipped!
Caroline: You've gotta read the first book first. It won't make sense if you don't.
Damon: I miss Anne Rice. She was so on it.

Elena: I don't wanna talk about my future, Stefan. Because everything you're saying makes it perfectly clear you aren't gonna be in it.

Damon: We're a team. We could travel the world together. We could try out for The Amazing Race!

Elena: You don't have to push me away. I can do this.
Stefan: I can't.

In the end, the only person you can depend on is yourself.

I believe in that quotation.

Anyway, today is Saturday. Since we have no training, my plan was to go SM with my teammates. But that wasn't followed. I woke up late so I got lazy then decided not to go to SM anymore.

I just watched Vampire Diaries again. 4 more episodes to go and I'm done with Season 1. Tomorrow, Dad's going to Quiapo and I'll tell him to buy the Season 2. \:D/

I cooked my own dinner tonight. It's pansit canton, fried tofu and ham, and Mom's homemade kimchi. Nomnomnom. I didn't use any spoon or fork today. I only used the stainless steel chopsticks that Mom bought at a Korean store two days ago.

Later, I'll watch the remaining four episodes of the series.

Then tomorrow morning, instead of going to the Team Building (Cattleya Resort), I'll just study for my History mastery exam. Then on the afternoon, we'll go to our family friend's birthday party.

Ohwell. :)

Hello, December.

It's been weeks since my last post here.

Hey, I have a new addiction. You know what? It's vampire diaries. I just bought the season one (DVD) last Sunday and I'm planning to buy the season two next week.. or after I'm finished watching the first one. I'm already in the 8th episode of the show. I can't watch it this week because it's our mastery examinations.

Anyway, today we took Geometry and CL tests. I hope I'll pass geometry. Proving is hard. It's officially one of my most despised subjects.

Oh, btw. I arrived home early today because I'm not feeling well. I have this bad cold and I'm starting to have cough. :| I don't want to absent because.. Idk. I don't want to. It's hard to cope up.

Tomorrow's gonna be the last day of exams this week. Chemistry and Filipino.

Then we'll still have examinations next week. Oh, good luck to me.

I'm still busy this weekend. Saturday will be training day. Sunday will be the birthday celebration of our family friend.

I want a day of relaxation, so badly.

Next week, I'll get a manicure and pedicure around Dapitan. I hope. \:D/ I want to pamper myself.

Another day has passed.

Yesterday's Saturday. And it's already past 1am now. I shall go to sleep after making this blog entry.

Since there is no training yesterday, I went to USTe to play Call of Duty with Jessie, CJ, Bonn, Zebadiah, and Matthew. I'm used to being the only girl whenever I'm with somebody to bond with. We played for three hours straight, so my eyes hurt.

After playing, we went to SM North Edsa to eat Burger King. I missed eating onion rings there. Then we roamed around the mall and went to TriNoMa to run an errand. Zebadiah and I bought Mister Donut before going home.

I arrived home on time.

And here I am again, using the computer for almost 4 hours straight.

Good Mornight.