How am I feeling?

When I generalize what I feel, I feel fine.

Then when you get deeper, my emotions are all.. fvcked up. There's this side that thinks that I can talk to that person. She wants to fix the problems. She still hopes that things will get better the second time around. She believes that second chances happen. She wants to fight for love. She'll do anything for the one she loves.

Then here's the other side. She thinks that true love isn't true at all. Let him wait for him to approach you. Never approach him when he isn't the one who approached first. She wants to change that person because she doesn't know him now. She doesn't want to fight because she already knows that it'll be a complete failure. She doesn't want to love again because her heart really hurts. She wants to start all over again but she doesn't know how to. She's stuck in the past. She wants to move on but she can't.

But you know what? One of the things she wants to do is.. not to cry anymore. She's really sick of crying. She already knows that the tears aren't worth it. Nobody died right? So why bother crying?

She can do this. She must be strong and just go with the flow. She misses you so much, she loves you. But she needs to fix her own life. She must be happy for the everybody's sake.

Oh, her name is Lydelle by the way.

OOHHH. Love, why do you hurt me this way? :| Hha.